i have no willpower

it's been proven i have no willpower 
or i'd be dead and gone by now 
or i'd be dead and gone by now 

at night i pace the excavated grave yard grounds 
i see the dead, i hear their escaped lost sounds 
at their headstones i grow  mushrooms
to mask the hearse's foul exhaust fumes 

at night i suck the love out of my mistakes  
i grind my dreams to dust till my fake jaw breaks
at the bar i buy another round of medication 
to wash down life's bland taste of damnation 

its been proven i have no willpower 
or i'd be dead and gone by now 
or i'd be dead and gone by now 

from whore house's to the gutter i explored 
i swore aloud i'd live and die by the sword 
watched the hands of time break my words 
as pure snow dumps turn to blood pud turds 

from schools to prisons i fought and learned
i cursed the cigarettes i rolled and burned 
watched the smoke hang lazily then vanish 
as slowly my loveable devils Doc's banish  

its been proven i have no willpower 
or i'd be dead and gone by now 
or i'd be dead and gone by now

i drowned when i entered the baptismal sea
my kiss silenced the scream of the banshee 
empty monsters roamed the land of my birth 
looking for my formless bones to unearth 

but i am gone now never to be forgiven 
but wrath's hands movements are driven
they resurrected the fallen on their altar 
i stole my second breath and began to faltar 

its been proven i have no willpower 
or i'd be dead and gone by now 
or i'd be dead and gone by now

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